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When
Bharadwaj
and I knocked on the door to the Stationmasters humble house he
made one thing clear from the very beginning.
Actually he made it a condition for our entering his premises that
each of us had to chose now - if we had not done so already.
He said:
You have to chose...
there is no middle path ...
either this world
or GOD!
I must confess that I was irritated by the predictability in his
words. Now this was a typical spiritual cliché! I have heard
this statement many times
before... (Oh, how wrong I was!)
Do you have any questions?
If you don't have any genuine questions you might as well leave now!!
His intense, impolite behavior
caught my body between the chair I was going for and his couch.
He grabbed my arm and practically forced my to sit beside him on his
couch. His face went closer to mine - it stopped when our faces
were around 5 cm from each other. Through a distinct odor of "old man" a
pair of laser-eyes had spotted their target - a deer caught on the
middle
of the road by the lights from a car - collision was unavoidable.
Do you know that
the most important sense to conquer is the sense of feeling?
Through the skin it covers the whole body. Therefore I never use a fan -
not even in June! You are all slaves of positive feelings through this
sense.
Now what is your question?
I then asked him how
he had conquered his skin and the world. His answer made me sweat and
freeze at the same time.
I was sitting on this couch. I held a knife to my throat.
I said:
Oh mind! -
if you rise your head
I will cut...
Then the mind did not come.
In this moment the world stopped.
So I will use this break from time and space to write all these thoughts
from here: from my laptop years later. What the Stationmaster here
uttered was not mere talking! His words were more like primordial sounds
capable of being transporters of spiritual essence. It was a pure gift
of intense aliveness in a stark contrast to the old body on the couch.
Yet at the same time I can say that I did not make this choice between
this world and God - I never did. This dualism had and has
no meaning for me.
Dear reader! This leads us to a very important issue:
If we are all individual in our universal essence it is impossible to
copy a Master - it is impossible to do what he tells you to do...
So we have to imbibe essence instead of sitting with our small knives
trying to imitate a Stationmaster.
Like
Bharadwaj
- soma, same in essence, but at same time coming from an entirely
different planet. The stationmaster always scolds Bharadwaj:
Why do you come here again and again!?
Don't you know that God also is in the streets?
Bharadwaj replies with a silent,
radiant smile ... This requires courage!
And courage as essence was easy to feel and imbibe in
the company of this Divine Inspirator! Listen now what the Stationmaster
said about the
relationship to his own Gurus.
The Stationmaster had had two Gurus. After 10 years of unwavering spiritual
practice starting with his retirement at the age of 60 he realized his
Eternal Soul.
Then he went to his first Guru with the following words:
I have
Realized... I don't need you or your company anymore.
This Guru got furious
and through the Stationmaster out of his ashram.
Then the Stationmaster went to his
second Guru - a man still living on a churchyard around 100 Km outside
New Delhi. He repeated his statement. The churchyard-guru congratulated
the Stationmaster with his achievement.
Now back to Hoshiarpur
June 2000...
With the immense intense eyes you can sense on the above picture the
Stationmaster grilled us with these words:
Don't rely upon a Guru!
Don't make me a Guru!
Just cultivate your willpower
and
If the mind comes:
use the rod!
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